shoes

in trying to downsize my belongings i have acquired over the last few years of my life, i realized i have a lot (and i mean a lot) of shoes.  i also realized i don't have many friends with a similar foot size, who would wear a stiletto.

its amazing how much "stuff" one acquires through ones life...being only 31, i can not imagine what my apartment would have looked like in another 30 years.  as part of this journey, i decided (really there was no choose) to downsize my "stuff".  i am hoping i can fit everything i need in my car for the next year or two...we will see how that really works out.

i have a lot of shoes...a lot.  the top on my closet was stacked high with shoe boxes, full of shoes i may or may not have ever worn.  one pair i wore once to a job interview. another in vegas for my 30th birthday (they gave me blisters),  two of the same shoe in different colors since they were on sale.

shoes! i love shoes.  i blame this on my mother.  she loved shoes, and shopping.  i remember trying to wear her shoes around the house when i was little, before they fit. i remember being so excited when someday i would have the same size foot and be able to have all these shoes to myself. i also remember when my foot became to big to fit into my mothers size 6 shoes...this was not the plan.

so i ended up with shoes...lots of shoes. a lot of shoes that i will not be able to take with me, since they could fill the trunk alone.  they had to be passed along to a fellow shoe lover, who would love them just as i had. my dad's girlfriend had just the person, her daughter...and who better than a fashionista who lives in manhattan.

i left a box of these shoes with my dad to pass along.  during a phone call later, he asked how it was that there were so many unworn shoes there, why did i buy them and not wear them?  i really had no good answer other than i felt i had to have them at the time, and that was it.  his girlfriend came to my rescue and explained it so well...its an experiment, you get a shoe, and maybe it works, maybe it doesnt, but thats how you create your personal style.  she related it to how he will spend thousands of dollars on material for a new invention, and if it doesn't work, he just throws it away.  same as my shoes.

i love shoes, and will always love shoes.  shoes.

today is the first day of the rest of my life

so here we are, the first day of the rest of my life...yesterday was, too.  this blog is also the first i have ever had, and it will be the first time i have ever lived on martha's vineyard.

i have to say i don't think of myself as a writer, but decided to start a journal to follow my journey into a world unknown to me.  i know i will be on the vineyard through the summer, and then plan to move to santa fe, nm.  i have no plans as to what i will do in santa fe, but know it will be exciting and new.  as for the vineyard, i will be a part time nanny for my very cute and amazing cousin eli, as well as working in a restaurant part time to save up cash for the trip out west.

i hope this writing thing gets a little easier, and i hope to post photos to go along with these entries.

let the journey begin!